28 de octubre de 2013

*Moving Out*

28 de octubre de 2013
Y así, un buen día, decidí que *Noches Incluídas* se terminaba. Claro que voy a seguir escribiendo, pero no acá. No así. Sean bienvenidos a -Cigarette Daydreams Nation-.
See ya!
Xo.
C.

24 de octubre de 2013

*She's gone*

24 de octubre de 2013

Always going out of control...

*Fuck it, I'm done*

The worst part is I thought we were friends, and I trusted you, and you still went behind my back...

I don’t need any part time people in my life.
You’re either my friend or you’re not. You’re with me or you’re not.

You’re bored? Great. Find something to do.
Need a friend? Call someone else.

Cause honestly, I’m sick of being there for people every single time they need someone, and getting absolutely NOTHING in return. You wanna tell everyone how you’re so much more mature than them. That just shows me what kind of person/friend you really are.

Well, that’s okay, because you see, I’m done.

*The phoenix*





Put on your war paint 

You are a brick tied to me that’s dragging me down 
Strike a match and I’ll burn you to the ground 
We are the Jack ‘o Lanterns in July 
Setting fire to the sky 
Here he comes this rising tides 
So come on 

Put on your war paint 

Crossed marks and crossed hearts 
And hope to die 
Sue the clouds with red lining 

So we can take the world back from the heart attack 
One maniac at a time 
We will take it back 
You know time crawls on 
When you’re waiting for the song to start 
So dance alone to the beat of your heart 

Hey young blood 
Doesn’t it feel like our time is running out? 
I’m gunna change you like a remix 
Then I’ll raise you like a phoenix 
Wearing all vintage misery 
No, I think it looked a little better on me 
I’m gunna change you like a remix 
Then I’ll raise you like a phoenix 

Bring home the boys 
And scrap, scrap metal the tanks 
Get hitched 
Make a career out of robbing banks 
Because the world is just a terror 
And we are wearing black masks 
So rock our spirits 
And you’ll know we’ve passed 

Put on your war paint 

The war is won 
Before it’s begun 
Release the doves 
Surrender love.

22 de octubre de 2013

*Facing the truth*

22 de octubre de 2013
It scares me. It bloody scares me. It's gotten to the point in which I am not sure of what to do. Or if there's anything left to do at all. Why is this happening? How do I make it stop? Who do I call for help? How do I keep a piece of mind when everything around me is pure madness?. I feel the urge to run. To hide. To escape from this, but I can't. There's nowhere to go. I have to face this. Because, believe it or not, I am all somebody has left. I'm her only option. And though I'm scared as hell to lose her, or my own sanity, I'll do whatever I have to. Because I owe her my life. Just as much as that.

16 de octubre de 2013

*Alone Together*

16 de octubre de 2013
I don't know where you're going
But do you got room for one more troubled soul?
I don't know where I'm going but I don't think I'm coming home
And I said I'll check in tomorrow if I don't wake up dead
This is the road to ruin
And we're starting at the end

Say yeah
Let's be alone together
We could stay young forever
Scream it from the top of your lungs
Say yeah
Let's be alone together
We could stay young forever
We'll stay young, young, young, young, young.

You cut me off, I lost my track
It's not my fault, I'm a maniac
It's not funny anymore, no it's not

My heart is like a stallion
They love it more when it's broke in
Do you wanna feel beautiful?
Do you wanna?

I'm outside the door, invite me in
So we can go back and play pretend
I'm on deck, yeah, I'm up next
Tonight I'm high as a private jet

'Cause I don't know where you're going
But do you got room for one more troubled soul?
I don't know where I'm going but I don't think I'm coming home
And I said I'll check in tomorrow if I don't wake up dead
This is the road to ruin
And we're starting at the end

Say yeah
Let's be alone together
We could stay young forever
Scream it from the top of your lungs
Say yeah
Let's be alone together
We could stay young forever
We'll stay young, young, young, young, young.

My heart is like a stallion,
They love it more when it's broke in
Do you wanna feel beautiful?
Do you wanna?

I'm outside the door, invite me in
So we can go back and play pretend
I'm on deck, yeah, I'm up next
Tonight I'm high as a private jet, yeah

Yeah
Let's be alone together
We could stay young forever
Scream it from the top of your lungs
Say yeah
Let's be alone together
We could stay young forever
We'll stay young, young, young, young, young.

I don't know where you're going
But do you got room for one more troubled soul?
I don't know where I'm going but I don't think I'm coming home
And I said I'll check in tomorrow if I don't wake up dead
This is the road to ruin
And we started at the end

*Yes, that's the problem*

Me pregunto si, alguna vez, en otra dimensión, dejaré de quererlo. Y me lamento. Porque sé que, a estas alturas, es casi imposible encontrar un punto de retorno. No concibo la idea de no tenerlo "presente", pero tampoco la de hablar respecto a la situación. Probablemente, porque estamos *bien*. Porque él sigue siendo él y yo, ya no soy 'yo'. Porque hay una fina capa de estabilidad que nos recubre a todos y no quisiera quebrarla, para terminar en una telaraña. Porque entiendo que todo pasa, todo cambia, la gente se va y tomamos decisiones que afectan a nuestros entornos (aunque dudo que él lo comprenda). Sólo voy a quedarme con las palabras de Cassie a Sid. Sólo eso.

*I'd still choose you*

Even if I've got nothing to win or nothing to lose. Even if I'm going nowhere. Even if it made me weak. I'd choose you. I'd still choose you. Every single time. 'Cause the wound healed but memories remain.

*Quoting*

“This story never really had a point. It’s just a lull - a skip in the record. We are addresses in ghost towns. We are old wishes that never came true. We are hand grenades (and every word you say pulls the pin). We are all gods, we are all monsters.” Pete Wentz, The Boy With The Thorn In His Side

9 de octubre de 2013

*So get like me*

9 de octubre de 2013
Put on my J's and dance the whole night away
I’m naughty by nature like I’m hip-hop hooray
With my hands in the sky, I wave ‘em from side to side
My feet on the floor, I’m ’bout to turn up now

I'm in the club high off purp with some shades on
Tatted up, mini skirt with my J's on

J's on my feet
J's on my feet
J's on my feet
So get like me

28 de septiembre de 2013

*Hold On*

28 de septiembre de 2013

*I've got nothing*

I used to think I had the best end of the deal.What have I got?.Really?.Some money in my pocket.Some nice threads.Fancy car at my disposal.And I'm single.Unattached.Free as a bird.I don't depend on nobody.Nobody depends on me.My life's my own.

But I don't have peace of mind.And if you don't have that, you've got nothing.So...

So, what's the answer? That's what I keep asking myself.What's it all about?.You know what I mean?

12 de septiembre de 2013

*I should have let you win*

12 de septiembre de 2013
"Fuck you...I fought for us.It was you who didn't..."

*Wreck Me*

We clawed,we chained,our hearts in vain 
We jumped,never asking why 
We kissed,I fell under your spell 
A love no one could deny 

Don’t you ever say I just walked away 
I will always want you 
I can’t live a lie,running for my life 
I will always want you 

I came in like a wrecking ball 
I never hit so hard in love 
All I wanted was to break your walls 
All you ever did was break me 
Yeah, you wreck me 

I put you high up in the sky 
And now,you’re not coming down 
It slowly turned,you let me burn 
And now,we’re ashes on the ground 

Don’t you ever say I just walked away 
I will always want you 
I can’t live a lie, running for my life 
I will always want you 

I came in like a wrecking ball 
I never hit so hard in love 
All I wanted was to break your walls 
All you ever did was break me 
I came in like a wrecking ball 
Yeah,I just closed my eyes and swung 
Left me crouching in a blaze and fall 
All you ever did was break me 
Yeah,you wreck me 


5 de septiembre de 2013

*Cherry by Cherry*

5 de septiembre de 2013
"Nunca sé muy bien en dónde estoy parada".
"No creo ser capaz de amar,realmente,a nadie.Excepto a mi familia y pocos amigos".
"Todos somos neuróticos en algún punto".
"Me resulta imposible estar tranquila.Todas mis relaciones son tumultuosas".
"A veces,me siento demasiado triste como para siquiera pensar por qué estoy triste".
"A menudo me digo que estoy loca".
"Jodida hasta por el apellido".
"Nadie puede hacerme más daño del que me causé yo misma en los últimos años".
"Siempre me voy a ver distorsionada".
"La completa perfección...es una perfecta mentira".
"Detrás del circo y la parafernalia,sigo siendo humana".
"Las cicatrices me recuerdan que lo que pasé,fue real.Pero también lo fue la superación"

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